BloG

As an anarchist with a design for restructuring oppressive systems, I'm proud to be building an ever mutating working structure of my very own. We're taught from childhood how to obey. how to be obedient to society and those 'in charge'. Of us? We've been in a very long and very destructive era of mass-production, homogenization, and capitalist oppression. But despite this I know that each one of us has within the ability, talent, and wherewithal to provide for ourselves & share with generosity in our community and with those we love. 

If you are working for someone else. For a company. Or a boss. You ARE working for less than you are worth. By design. For they are profiting off of you. Otherwise they wouldn't be hiring you. If you think about, every moment you do something in your day. whether it be cooking a meal, sweeping your floors, walking your dogs. someone else is doing the same thing, as a job. The lie of the capitalist structure is that we need others providing those jobs for us. We need to appeal to authority, fit in with their (sub)standards, and live by their rules to get hired. to survive. You don't let me say it plainly, you have that capability within yourself. whomever you are, whatever your skillsets.

I'm not a perfectionist. I don't think you need years and years of experience to profit off something you're good at and like doing. Could i get hired as a professional home painter? maybe, may not. it would depend on if whomever was hiring thought highly enough of my skills, my experience, the way i dressed, or presented myself to clients, if i fit their biases of a 'good' employee. But whether or not i could get hired, i know i love to paint. I know ive been painting rooms since i was young, watching HGTV with my family and picking out paint colors to brighten up the home or refurbish furniture. I know i feel confident that if someone were (and have) hired me directly to paint their room  i would do a job im proud of, that i enjoy, and that they would in all likelihood be satisfied with. And you know what, I wouldn't want a job with a painting company. because i wouldnt want to do it for long 8 hour days for years and years under someone else's instruction. And for the rest of my time fearing that they could decide on a whim I'm fired and thus without the earnings i need. But i love painting, and if you'd like me to spruce up your space. Ill happily do so , for $24£ an hour. (peep when i wrote this)

I don't mean to suggest you cant have a completely satisfying job working under a boss, company, or institution. Of course there are many aligned and beautiful paths where that can be so. But we all know that isn't the majority of us. were taught to push ourselves to the limits of the daily grind, under the fear of lacking the resources and capital we need. And pleasure? Well its forbidden. its made taboo. because the more we learn to access it. to listen and be unafraid of our own body and its fascinating and beautiful mix of desires. the more clearly its made how unhappy we are pushing to prove ourselves to those who will always want more of us for less. 

Instead, I'm choosing to go my own way. to lay my own path. in rubber. in creation, in art, and sexuality, in design, and tenderness. trusting myself to be the boldest version of me. learning who that is with the guidance and knowledge of the stars above and spirits all around us. finding those who see me, and value my work, and my being. who could gain from it, and are happy to exchange their dollars and pence for what i can offer them. This mis belief that profiting off our art, sexuality, or spirituality is somehow either devalueing it, making it hyper-capatalist, or a way to trick and swindle others is so incredibly far from the truth. in fact the more we can embrace who we each are, individually, with our own uniqueness. the more authentically we can behave, the more value we see, and the more capitalism as we know it, falls. 

So if you judge or anger at me for my expression of my pleasures, and profits. if you wouldn't hire me. no worries, you dont need you. and if you admire, desire, or could simply use a little help around the home, or with your tense joints. if you want to support me, in living a life by my design and get something sweet out of it yourself. I welcome you. to pick an offering, or 3, or 8. I love developing new skillsets. Meeting people of all walks of life. And flowing from version 2 version of myself. For the astro-nerds out there, my sun-jupiter cazimi in archer Sagittarius shoots my shot in a wide and varietous multitude of directions. I cant help but spread big ideas, live boldly & humourously, travel well, and enjoy a life of learning. And yes, my scorpio moon chart ruler under a degree which astrologer Diana K Rosenberg notes are “Nonconformists with a bit of the wild and freaky in their natures, they may be obsessed with sex, and/or be drawn to sadism, fetishes, dominance, and the equation of pleasure and pain.”  means i've certainly lived life on the kinky side as is blessedly my nature. why not be a part?

Whether you're in it for the turn-on. or the practicality. the learning, or just to try something new and support another being in their wanderings. i welcome and invite you to be a part of my journey, my success, and my story. As i aid you with yours. i'll see you for the multifaceted human being that you are, as you recognize me all the same. a siren calls, will you follow?